Motherhood.

When a friend had his second child he was asked to describe his feelings now that he is a father for the second time and as we all had only one child...he very candidly said that you don't need to prepare for the affection for the second time,it already exists. So true. When I became a mother and I was shown my baby for the first time, I was surprised to not feel what I read in books or watched in movies...that flood of emotions, those instant tears filling your eyes...in fact for the first one month I was completely dazed and in utter confusion...didn't know how to hold the baby, when is the proper time to feed, those sleepless nights, those endless wailing...I was sure something is wrong with me...why am I not feeling those natural feelings which the whole world experiences ?? After two months on my way home I saw a young mother begging with her sleeping child in her lap at a traffic signal....instantly I saw my son's face in that child and felt a lump at my throat...a feeling I experienced for the first time. I realized like extreme sadness or happiness motherhood also takes time to sink in and once it does it grows...an emotion which has no boundary. Motherhood brought a side in me who always has tears in her eyes whenever something unwanted and tragic happens to children either in fiction or real....a person who always either buys food for those children in the street or sometimes give money knowing it's maybe not the right thing to do. Motherhood or parenthood brings out a self in you who surprises you everytime. Beauty of motherhood is to find a person in you whom you never knew existed and to find the real meaning of selfless love !!